Tears for you.

Sometimes I get very tired of having to be strong.  It doesn't come naturally. Today I want it to be okay to be weak. Today I want to cry - I am crying.  I miss my son and I want him back.  There is no away around that fact.  It will never go away; I know this, and although I hear that it will get better, I don't believe it will.

Today I am listening to Michael's playlist of music.  There is really upbeat on this list and it's occurred to me that Michael's music truly reflects his spirit.  The music is beautiful and it helps me feel very close to him.  I have probably mentioned this before but our tastes in music werevery similar but he knew more about contemporary artists than I did.  Music touches the soul and listening to the music he listened to makes me feel close to his. 

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